Dreams vs fear of Failing

 

I am one of those people that is always coming up with ideas or ways of improving my life not because I don't love my life but because I feel that I could always be doing more and this could be by doing lots of different things like wanting to earn more money, improve my career, trying something different, go on a diet, get fit. Now I am in no way saying that I always achieve what I set out to do and sometimes it can take me years to get round to doing something but I like to think that I have always tried my best to achieve my goals.

But since becoming a mum my feelings have changed not in the sense that I don't want any of the things that I previously did because I still do but its more to do with the fact I feel now that I am classed as an "adult" and I have responsibilities such as mortgage, bills and having children to feed, you know just everyday stuff that all us adults have to do. I now have soooo much fear of failing because I have so much more to lose and I can't afford to make wrong decisions.

I have had a variety of jobs since I was 14, my first job was in Woolworths as a sales assistant and it kind of went from there, I have always been very lucky to find better jobs as soon as I left one.
I have also worked as a lifeguard, a waitress, a leisure assistant, I qualified as an Aerobics and Aqua Aerobics instructor I when I was around 19/20 and taught classes for a couple of years at a local hotel but I didn't feel very confident or that I was any good at it so that started to get me down so I started thinking about what I could do and I decided that I wanted to become a Wedding Planner or work within the wedding industry by pure luck one of the ladies that used to attend one of my classes mentioned to me that she knew a lady that worked in Events/Weddings at a hotel and that she was sure if I got in touch with her that she could give me some advise about how to get into the industry.
When I got in touch with Beverley (Wedding Planer) it actually turned out that her assistant was going on Maternity leave and she was looking for someone to cover her maternity and I ended up applying for the job and getting it, I was so happy and overwhelmed it was an amazing job and leaving it is the one biggest regrets I have because I loved it but I was offered another job which was more money and a more challenging role at the time I thought it would be a good career move but as it turned out it wasn't, it was by far the biggest mistake I have ever made.

 

From there I then got another opportunity to work in a call centre on a part time basis and this was only ever meant to be a temp job just whilst we saved to buy a house as I still worked full time at the hotel, but I got pregnant soon after starting there and after my maternity I decided to just go back to the call centre as I couldn't commit to hotel hours with a baby it wouldn't be fair on me or the hotel and the call centre gave me the hours and support that I needed 7 years later I'm still there and although its a great job and a great company that I work for my passion is still within events and Weddings.

So a couple of years ago I decided that I wanted to become a Bridal Make up artist and started watching YouTube and reading blogs, I am still chasing this dream but the course I would like to do is quite expensive and in between everything else and normal life it is quite a big financial commitment, I know that I will get there in the end, its just hard to commit to something that involves an initial financial investment when you don't know if you are going to succeed or not.
I'm terrified of failing and because over the last few years I have lost some confidence in myself so the fear is even more apparent this is the main reason why I decided to start my blog and my YouTube channel to build on my confidence and I feel that its a good way to teach myself how I can improve on my make up skills.
Starting my YouTube channel and blog is something that I had been thinking about for a couple of years but I just kept coming up with excuses as to why people wouldn't watch my videos or read my blog, and then after speaking to my cousin Catia I decided that I should just give it a go, at the end of the day I had nothing to lose, I just thought what's the worst that could happen!!! Life is too short and I feel that with each video I gain more confidence and knowledge.

I know I'm only just starting this journey and I hope that I will be able to achieve my goal of becoming a successful Bridal Make up artist, and I am so glad that I finally decided to start my blog and my YouTube channel I don't know if it will lead anywhere but for now I am just super proud of myself for simply just starting them!!! Onwards and upwards!!!

I hope to inspire people to give in to the fear of the unknown and have the confidence to follow your dreams. I have seen a lot of quotes recently on social media and one has really stuck on my mind.......
 

 

Forever First impressions/ Review

Forever Living Review / First Impressions

So a few weeks ago something very exciting happened, I was asked if I would try out the Forever Make up and see what I thought of it, of course I was very excited but also little scared as I never thought I would be asked to do anything like this especially so soon after starting my YouTube channel.

I'm no beauty expert or guru I am just a girl who loves make up and I mainly started my YouTube channel to give me a bit of confidence and I thought it would be a good way of me looking back at the looks that I have created and learning from them, never did I think in a million years that someone would ask me to do a review on some make up!!

I am so grateful for the opportunity so thank you Lianne I had a great time trying out the products!!

The video is not perfect but I am still very new at this and hope to improve and become more confident with each video that I do.

So I am just going to go through each product that I used give the description that I have found online and also my thoughts on it, for further information such as ingredients I will put a link to their website at the bottom. I have done a video on my YouTube Channel Letty's Sparkle and I will add a link below in case you may want to see the make up in action.

So Starting with Skin care - again I must just add that I am not a skin care expert I am just a normal person giving my own opinions on products that were lent for me to try over a few days.

I believe the main ingredient in possibly most if not all of their products is Aloe even the make up. Please check out their website for more information.

Aloe Moisturising Lotion

A silky moisturising cream – containing nourishing aloe, jojoba oil, collagen and elastin – that leaves the skin feeling soft and supple. This lotion moisturises your face, hands and body whilst maintaining the skin’s natural pH balance. Its easy-to-absorb formula also makes a great base for makeup application.
£12.73
I used this for a few days and I must say I love it, its so moisturising on my face, its quite a thick cream which for me is perfect my skin always feels quite tight and dry after I clean it, but after using it for a couple of days it didn't, and now that I haven't used it for a few days as I have returned the products I can really see the difference. Looking forward to payday so I can treat myself.

Aloe Hand and Face Soap

Rich and creamy moisturising liquid soap, perfect for the entire family. The mild and non-irritating formula creates a luxurious lather to cleanse the face, hands and body on a daily basis.
£11.27
I used this a couple of times just whilst I was in the shower just to wash my face, it was really nice and refreshing, and my skin felt lovely and soft after.

Alluring Eyes

Revitalising eye cream that reduces the appearance of fine lines, wrinkles and helps skins elasticity.
£20.71
This was a lovely eye cream, I struggle to find eye creams that I can use as often when I have tried other eye creams before they really hurt and irritate my eye area, but this was lovely it was cooling and very gentle, I did not use it long enough to be able to comment whether it reduces the appearance of fine lines or wrinkles but again this may be one that I may have to try as soon as the one I am currently using runs out.

Aloe Scrub

This delicate scrub works to remove dead skin cells which clog up pores and cause skin to look dull. Gentle enough for everyday use for your face or body, the natural ingredients of jojoba and aloe vera help to exfoliate, revealing healthy-looking skin.
£13.44
This scrub was so so gentle on my skin, it was lovely I would probably even go as far as saying that its one of the best I have ever tried. It exfoliates without being aggressive, I also believe that it cleared up some of my blackheads on my nose after a couple of uses, it was brilliant, again this is something that I would buy.

Make up - Flawless by Sonya is what its called and its also Aloe based.

Cream to Powder Foundation - Sandy

A new and innovative aloe vera-inspired formula. Transform from a luxurious, creamy texture to a silky powder, leaving the skin soft with a healthy and natural glow.
£28.20
Lovely foundation, so easy to blend, the shade that I was lent was Sandy which was perfect for me. It is so lightweight on my skin it didn't feel cakey at all it actually almost felt like I had nothing on, the coverage is pretty good also. It was sets to a powder but leaving a very natural looking glow to the skin, overall very impressed with this product!! had never tried anything like it before and I was very pleasantly surprised.

 

Baked eyeshadow Quad - Rose Bronze

Handcrafted in Italy, flawless by Sonya Baked Eyeshadows are slowly baked for an ultra-smooth, flawless application. Enriched with aloe and natural minerals, each quad of colours offers a coordinated palette of nourishing shades that take the guesswork out of pairing your favourite Sonya colours together.

This eyeshadow quad features 4 shimmering neutral shades of rose-gold, deep rose-bronze, warm gold and pale gold.
£30.50

These were lovely eyeshadows to use, they were not very pigmented but they are buildable and very easy to blend, I loved the colours too, they had the most beautiful sparkle/shimmer in them it was very subtle but stunning.

 

Brilliant Blush - Mia

Our aloe-inspired, silky powder blush delivers perfect, sheer colour to highlight, contour and define your cheeks, creating a natural and healthy glow
£18.16
Lovely blush, it was pigmented so a little went a long way, very easy to blend, it gave that pop of colour that looks natural.
 

Delicious Lipstick - Copper

Infused with our very own aloe vera, this innovative flawless by Sonya Delicious Lipstick creates the perfect veil of colour for rich, luxurious and deliciously flawless lips.
£17.30
The formula of this lipstick is just lovely, it felt so moisturising and creamy, it didn't dry out at all it just kept my lips lovely and soft. The colour wasn't something that I would normally pick but once it was on it was actually ok, maybe I need to learn to be a bit more adventurous with my lip colours :)

Flawless Volumizing Mascara

Our aloe-inspired flawless by Sonya Volumizing Mascara creates volume and curl for glamorous, dramatic lashes coating each lash with a velvety finish, to leave them looking beautiful, healthy and flawless.
£21.36
This is my Favourite product of them all, this mascara is amazing!!! It separates, lengthens and volumises your lashes its just amazing there are no other words that I can use to describe it other than amazing. 

Mineral Make up - (Apologies but I can not remember the shade I was given)

Provides soft coverage and a flawless luminous glow.
£25.63
This was again a lovely mineral foundation, I did have to apply a few layers on but once it was all blended in which didn't take much effort to do it look lovely. For a  natural everyday look I feel like this would be perfect as it was so easy to apply.

 

Aloe BB Crème - Sandy

Why You’ll Love It Aloe BB Creme Sandy with SPF 20 was created exclusively for Flawless by Sonya to hydrate, prime, conceal and offer sun protection creating a soft, luminous glow, leaving the skin looking natural and flawless. Uniquely flexible, Aloe BB Crème Sandy works with most skin tones to create the look of perfectly flawless skin. Aloe BB Crème is an all-in-one product that may be used in many variations; find the ways that you love it. How to Get the Look Here are some of our favourite creations with Aloe BB crème: Apply Aloe BB Crème generously to cleansed skin to even out the skin tone and instantly provide smooth and flawless looking skin. Aloe BB Crème also acts as a primer or makeup base for your foundation. After Aloe BB Crème is applied onto the skin, apply your flawless by Sonya Cream to Powder Foundation or Mineral Makeup over the Aloe BB Crème. The Foundation Brush from the Sonya Flawless Master Brush Collection is the perfect companion for a flawless application.
£32.64
The BB crème is by far the best one I have ever tried its just amazing!!! The Description given above is pretty dead on accurate. I must be honest when I first saw the price I was a little shocked but as soon as I tried it on I totally understood why, it is incredible, it not only leaves your skin feeling so moisturised, smooth and soft but it also covers up all the imperfections that you want covered. Its amazing although I am totally gutted that the price is so high I am pretty sure I may have to treat myself for my next birthday!!

Aloe Lips

Get kissable lips with this rich and nourishing pocket-sized lip balm. Soothe and moisturise dry lips with the conditioning ingredients of aloe, jojoba and beeswax. Great to protect lips all-year round.
£2.99
I had very chapped lips before I tried these products and this lip balm made my lips lovely and soft within a day I think, it was so quick its brilliant - this was a little gift given for me to keep from Lianne (Thank you)

 

Overall I think the products are very good, I did have my favourites of course but overall I am very impressed with all of them really.  

 

Disclaimer: I was not sponsored to do this blog post or my video, I was simply lent the products to try out and see what I thought of them.

YouTube video: I have had a few problems with trying to uploads it so as soon as its up I will add link. 

Forever Living Website: http://foreverlivinguk.com/